I am writing this blog today as it is the anniversary of a loss in my life. UNlike some losses that I have experienced, I am unable to forget the exact date of the loss as a good date comes immediately before it. I know that some people reading this may ask why I would want to "forget" the date of a loss? Why not remember the exact date of each and every loss that I have experienced and remember them every year? If you take a moment to write down every lose you have ever experienced there would be a lot. For example I lost my stuffed dog as a kid, a couple of cats, our hamster, my grandma's, grandpa's two pregnancies and that is just the short list. It does not include the other losses that I have experienced in my life and the people who's losses I have share in.
I instead choose to honour their memories and live my life as tribute to their lives. I choose to let their whole lives impact me in a positive way and not dwell on the fact that their lives or time with me ended on a particular date. Now having said that today is an anniversary of the loss of my dad. Today I decided to keep my son home from daycare with me as a help to keep me balanced. While I have accepted the loss of my dad, I still find myself feeling a bit depressed, or you could say kinda blah. There is nothing better for the soul than the laughter of a child who yet to experience much loss in their lives. Who takes each day as a gift and is more worried about where his train is than the fact that this is the anniversary of his grandpa's death