I will write more later when I have time to both think and put my thoughts together.
This blog started out with the title of bravery and healing. While I will still talk about it in this and later blogs, I thought time was a good topic and title to use at this time. I recently chatted with A friend about perinatal loss which brought me to think about my own loss, both the miscarriage and the ectopic pregnancy. A good amount of time, years, has passed since both events and yet something as simple as sharing my story with this friend made the flood gates open again. All the emotions of those events come back to the front of my mind. The difference for me is that they were not as raw as when the events had happened and time has truly made them easier to handle.
I will write more later when I have time to both think and put my thoughts together.
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![]() The above cartoon accurately depicts how we found out that we had miscarried. It felt like forever that we waited for the radiologist to confirm what we had seen on the ultrasound. I remember a feeling a sense of emptiness in my heart . I felt a little like a zombie going through the motions of getting up and walking to the door. Our doctor was available to see us immediately after the ultrasound for which I am grateful. Even at that point it felt surreal and I was still in a state of denial. It was not till I got home that It really hit me, or I let it. On a day that is meant to celebrate love wanted to take a moment to say I love you to all the babies that we carried but were never born. To say I love u to those who were and left us to quickly, and TO THOSE WHO ARE GOING THROUGH LOSS RIGHT NOW.
![]() Nelson Mandela in the end was just a man. He loved, lost and felt like we all do. He had many years to think about what is important in life and the value of determination to get up every time we fall down. He spoke of education and the power of hope. As a world grieves a many most have never met, lets take time to be inspired by his many messages of HOPE. I chose this message to talk about today as it pertains to not just grieving a loss but also keeping our dreams alive. It is easier for most people to accept the loss of someone they know and who has the chance to make their mark on the world. Despite having never met Mandela in person I can appreciate the important role he has played in the world and the power of Hope he provided to so many. I can also see now how the hope of having a successful pregnancy in the future after our first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. We were devastated after the loss and I think it was the words of hope we had from our doctor and others that helped us move foreword. As Mandela says hope is a powerful weapon that we used to move through our loss, get back our hope and try agian. Our reward this time was a beautiful little boy ![]() Remembrance day, a day that has been set aside to remember all those that have died in service of their country. It is a time to look back and think about what may not have been had the past happened differently. It can often be a time of sadness as others think about their own recent loss. It is an important to remember the past and use the past to learn from or to help others. Today while we remember the loss and sacrifice of veterans past to take a few moments and remember all those who have experienced the personal loss of pregnancy or their babies. Please take a moment today to share a moment of remembrance and add your thoughts through a comment on this blog. JUST WANTED TO GIVE A BIG HUG TO ANYONE GOING THROUGH A LOSS RIGHT NOW. YOU ARE NOT ALONE, and those of us who have gone through one or two are here to support and listen.
I finally registered for the walk part of the Silent Hearts walk/Run. I have created a seperate blog for this run under the Voices of awareness tab.
![]() Part of the reason I started this website and blog was to raise awareness on the topic of pregnancy loss, miscarriage in particular. I have had the privilege to d join this facebook page doing the same in a different way. "Silent Hearts walk and run was created and started in hopes of bringing awareness and information of infant loss to the community, as well as support and remembrance to those who have lost their infants. Perinatal loss includes pregnancy or infant loss including miscarriage, still birth or neonatal deaths." - Silent Hearts - Perinatal Loss Awareness Walk and Run Facebook more to come |
AuthorI am a wife, a mother and a survivor. I have experienced a miscarriage, sucessfull pregnancy and an ectopic pregnancy. Archives
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