I have to chuckle when people are surprised with how much information they are asked for when they see their doctor or other healthcare professional. Over my four pregnancies I have gotten used to sharing a lot of information. You never know what not telling your doctor about may have been important or helpful in giving you the care you deserve. A good relationship with my doctor I find has really made me feel prepared for the ups and downs of my pregnancy and my surgeries and delivery. 

This is a post that I will add to as the pregnancy goes on.

Like this flower I find the hot weather makes me feel kinda droopy and kinda sick. I have to wonder if it is making me feel this way now when I am only 12 weeks pregnant, how I will feel in August at 24 weeks? I remember being pregnant with my son over the winter, it was great. I got to wear all kinds of nice sweaters and long sleeved shirts. Now I find anything more than a tank top is to much. I am feeling so worn out by this heat that I will need to write more later when I can actually think.

I did however feel my baby kick of sorts this afternoon in a swing and a miss kinda thing. Enough force I felt the movement but not big enough yet to get ribs or push out on my tummy.

added to June 7th

In the last few days at work,  the air conditioning has been off and luckily it is now  fixed. The area that I work in is normally on the cooler side as the outside doors when opened feed up to the area. As such I plan to have a sweater or like to keep me comfortable. For the last few days it has been very warm and I have had to wear stripper outfits, meaning layers that are good to remove and still look professional in. I have found that this pregnancy I have been having trouble keeping my body regulated and at a happy temperature. THanks alot hormones.

I know that many women do not feel pretty during their pregnancy. I have spent the day thinking about how people and society define beauty. In some cultures a big butt is seen as beautiful and in others a long neck. It the past  in some countries feet were bound to keep them small and dainty. In todays day and age we are bombarded with so many mixed messages of  what beauty is.
I think we need to look at each part of the pregnancy as  beautiful. From the start of the weight gain to hen the belly being as big as a house. Pregnancy is a beautiful time in a woman's life and as women we need to embrace this special beauty. We are carrying a new life and that in itself is beautiful.
Another part of pregnancy that people feel is not pretty are stretch marks. Last pregnancy I lucky not to have any. Everyone has their ideas on ways to stop them from happening and from what I understand there is not much we can do to stop them as much of it is genetics. I say that is it can's hurt to do things like use lotion, keep hydrated or use things like olive oil to keep the body happy.
I think that this quote sums up how we need to look at the beauty of pregnancy and our own idea of beauty. We are all beautiful and it is what we feel is beautiful that matters. We need to embrace the beauty that is our pregnancy let the opinions of others  wash away if they bring us down  instead of build us up.

Well in the last few days I have been getting over the flu or some kind of tummy churning bug. I have not felt that badly sick in a long time and being pregnant it scary when you start feeling dizzy and nauseous at the same time. I had tried taking another of nausea pills and after it did not seem to help I knew it was time to tell my manager that I needed to go home and boy was it good I did. I made it home and changed before my lunch let loose. After that I was scared to move and after a few times my tummy was sore I decided that it was best to go to the hospital and get checked out. Hubby thought it would be good to go to the medicenter first and I had a feeling that this was not the best thing
Once I got to the hospital I knew I had made the right decision. While I did have to wait for awhile I was seen and  taken care of. It turned out that I was pretty dehydrated to start with and needed IV liquids. So a few litres of fluids and a antinauseant I started to feel much better. I also got to see my baby was okay with a quick ultrasound to check for the fetal heartbeat. I am amazed how much my baby has changed since the last ultrasound. Well stilll getting over all this so I should get back to sleep