I have just finished reading the Silent Hearts page on facebook and it appears  had another successful event this year despite the weather. The final numbers have not been posted but the pictures I have seen it looks like it was well attended. I wish that I had been able to attend the event, but the bad weather and things at work made it impossible. Thank you all those who attended and both raised awareness about perinatal loss but remembered those  others who have lost.

While I could not be their in person, I was definitely there in spirit. The wet and cold weather would have made the run/walk area potentially dangerous for a 7 month pregnant women. I know that for me, while I have moved on, I still think about the pregnancies that I lost. What kind of people might they have been if they had been allowed to be born and grow up. How my life would have been different with them in my life. I know that if the first pregnancy had not ended in miscarriage I would not have had my Eryk. 

Today is the day of the Silent HEarts walk/Run in Regina. I am happy that work is allowing me the time to go to it and pay my respects in a way. I just hope the weather cooperates with us.

Well, the Silent Hearts walk/run of 2014 is only weeks away and I will be registering this week to help raise awareness. This event has special  meaning to me as I have experienced perinatal loss in the form of a Miscarriage. When I had my miscarriage, I felt as if  I  was so alone in my loss.  Like know one else I knew had been through this type of loss and wondered how I would get through it. After attending this event last year, I learned how many other people had experienced a miscarriage or other perinatal loss. I am finding this hard to write so I will elaborate later.

Click on the more proof button below to hear another story of perinatal loss. It goes to show how important it is to have a walk such as this and raise awareness so others will know that they are not alone in their grief.

Well I made it around the whole route, the Run/Walk is completed and I am planning to do it again next year. make it through the walk. Not because of the distance but because of the sentimental nature of the event.  Once the walk started it became easier as everyone went as a group for a common goal and in support of watch other. The final numbers of attendees was 475 including people of all ages, ethnicities and reasons for attending.  I had the chance to take my son with me on the walk and was glad to have him join me this year and hopefully he will come join me again next year. 

Well the walk is tomorrow and I find myself with Mixed emotions  which I will write about in a bit. 
As you can see from the changed date I was unable to write much last night. I went to pick up my race package  with my number and such in it. I was going to get a flag and had the words and picture already planned out in my head. I heard where the flag station was and was fully intending to go get one. I then started to remember the losses I have had and the tears started to flow. It was all I could do to get to my vehicle and regain my composure. I didn't end up getting my flag but perhaps I may try just before the walk. Off to get ready and hopefully my son will join me for the event.


As it is getting closer I am wondering if I will make it the whole way or not, getting some nerves. The big question.....will I be strong enough?

 October 1st 2013, 2 of the organizers of the Silent Hearts walk/Run were on CTV Morning live talking about the event and why it was started. I have linked the video of it to the link below. It was a short but powerful segment. I like many of my fellow participants found it very moving. I am amazed everytime I hear another story of loss in pregnancy about the resiliency of  people to overcome tragedy and loss. Some people just survive and others take their loss or tragedy and use it to help others. Saturday will be an amazing event and powerful message of support and hope for so many. The event now has over 300 people participating and that is not including the many volunteers who will help us walkers and runners throughout the event.