Well my friend came the other day so we are not getting pregnant this month but we will keep trying.  I will write more later but just wanted to let everyone who has been reading the latest update.

Well it has been 28 days since I stopped taking birth control pills and what a roller coaster it has been.  I had that pain scare which I still don't know what caused it. I have since had days where I have had what feels like cramps that did not go anywhere and the other day a small speck of blood. I thought when I got that speck and it came with some cramping that it was a sign we were not pregnant and my friend was coming. It is now almost two days later and no guest, Could this mean we are pregnant or is my cycle now not 28 days?

All I can say is waiting to take a pregnancy test when you want to be pregnant sucks,  that is all

Well I am sure glad I was able to read my post operative report. I know my blood type is O+ and that yes I still have my fallopian tube intact after my laproscopic surgery to remove the pregnancy. It is amazing what they notate in their reports. It is also interesting to see what they  look while they are inside there, Good to know my appendix and such look healthy. I also got the hormone test back which from what I can tell did not say much. I will have to seek more information or just wait till we test to see if we are pregnant or if we will need to keeping enjoying the process of trying.

Have ever tried to get information from a doctors office over the phone? it is practically impossible to get anything more than you need to come and see them or I can't prove you are you. There has to be a way to verify a persons identity and give out the info you need. Well the bright side is I will be able to get an idea on whether I still have my right Fallopian tube like I think I do or if the doctor I saw on Saturday is right and they always have to remove it for an ectopic pregnancy.

It has been awhile since I posted to this blog but doing so now as i have something to share.  A couple of days ago I started have a cylindrical feeling pain on my right side. This is the same side that we had our ectopic pregnancy on and it got me wondering if I was experiencing ovulation pain. The next day I felt the same pain and on the third day I was feeling like I was going to puke while trying to change my sons diaper and get ready for work. By the fourth day I went to the doctor to get checked out and he felt around the area, asked a few questions and then gave me a test to get get my hormone levels checked. He said that it was a place to start but not likely the reason for my symptoms. Why not you ask? He is insistent that when they do surgery for an ectopic that theyalways have to remove the tube. I was pretty sure that she had been able to save it and when I got home so was my hubby. It is now the fifth day of feeling off and the pain is mostly gone in that spot but I still feel nausea and some discompfort. The pain now feels like it is more centered and likely mu uterus. I also am feeling tired despite a decent nights sleep. So it begs the question am I paranoid or not?

Well the process of trying again to have another child has started  in that I have stopped taking my pills today and starting to feel the signs of a period. While I am very excited about the possibility of getting pregnant again, I am also asking myself what was I thinking? I know that I am ready to be pregnant again and raise a second little one. I am more worried about the possibility that I will have another miscarriage or Ectopic pregnancy. I wonder if my heart can handle the possibility of another loss.  I guess time will tell how this story turns out. I will just remind myself how wonderful things turned out when we tried again after our first loss. It turned out to be a beautiful little boy named EWryk who is now turing two in less than three months.